Discovering My Inner Child: Lessons in Authenticity and Resilience

 Title: Discovering My Inner Child: Lessons in Authenticity and Resilience

Twelve years ago, I took a leap that changed my life—I joined an inner self-discovery workshop. That decision not only helped me confront my inner struggles but also laid the foundation for personal and professional growth, teaching me resilience and the importance of self-awareness in navigating challenges. Financial limitations had kept me from participating earlier, even though I had longed for it for years. The workshop turned out to be a profound experience, filled with tears, realizations, and emotional confrontations.

One of the most intense revelations was my deep-seated resentment toward my mother. She was the only person I could direct my frustrations at, though it was far from transparent. On the surface, I continued to be her financial supporter, the one who shouldered responsibilities for her and my siblings. She often pressured me by pointing out how others supported their families, guilt-tripping me into blind commitment. Whenever problems arose, I was the one who stepped in to solve them.

This blind loyalty left me financially depleted while my siblings built their own lives. Recognizing this pattern was a turning point for me—it taught me the importance of setting boundaries and valuing my own needs. I began to see how crucial it is to strike a balance between supporting others and prioritizing self-care, a lesson that has since guided my personal and professional relationships. Even when she was chased out of her home, I stepped in to ensure peace and stability. These moments triggered an inner voice, my inner child, screaming at me: “What the hell are you doing?”

Another poignant moment came during a time when my house was undergoing renovations. With no doors and an unsafe environment, my mother rushed to welcome her grandchildren elsewhere, leaving me and my daughter behind. My daughter, confused and hurt, kept asking, “Where is Popo?” The pain in her eyes was a sharp knife in my heart. I can’t even recall what I told her because the emotional wound was too deep. My inner child spoke again, urging me: “Look into your life and make sure your child is not hurt again.”

These are just glimpses of the countless moments when my inner child tried to reach out to me. For years, I ignored it, held back by limiting beliefs that I’ve since identified and worked through on my coaching journey. The breakthroughs I experienced during this time helped me rebuild my life, piece by piece. Through practices like meditation, sound healing, and past life regression courses at Soleil Trinity, I began peeling away the layers of my pain. Slowly, I started seeing myself for who I truly was and took actionable steps to improve my well-being, including setting boundaries and prioritizing self-care. In search of this, I went for meditation, sound healing and past life regressions courses held by Soleil Trinity. Slowly but eventually the layers started to peel. I begin to see more of myself as myself and took steps to improve my wellbeing. 

Why am I sharing this? Because I know many people out there have similar stories, and I believe these experiences hold valuable lessons. By reflecting on our journeys, we can uncover insights that foster personal growth and resilience—qualities that empower us in every aspect of life, including our professional endeavors. This is only a fragment of mine—less than 1% of my life—but it carries a universal message. Wherever you are and whoever you may be, one thing truly matters: being authentic to yourself. Borrow strength from your inner child to support you on your journey. You might not find many people who understand you—maybe not even me—but I am here as an experienced coach and BaZi practitioner, ready to help you navigate your path.

In the end, I take full responsibility for allowing these experiences to happen, recognizing that accountability is a powerful step toward resilience. This lesson has not only shaped my personal growth but also strengthened my ability to navigate challenges with clarity and intention—a skill that resonates deeply in both personal and professional realms. It’s not my mother’s fault or my siblings’ fault. I’m grateful they’ve built their own lives. My blessings will always be with them.

This journey is far from over, and there’s so much more to share. I hope my story inspires you to begin discovering your inner child, embracing your authenticity, and finding the strength to be the best version of yourself.Why am I opening these? I know many out there are having similar experiences as mine and mind you it is just less than 1% of my life. Therefore, I hope that whoever you are and wherever you be there is only one thing matter-being you authentically. Being the best in yourself. Borrow strength from your inner child to support you. You might not find many people who understand you not even me but I am an experience coach and a Bazi practitioner. 

Last but not least, I only have myself to be blame because I allow it to happen. It is not my mother fault and my siblings fault. I am glad they make it out fine. My blessings will always be the best only for them.

There are more to come therefore I will share them as my article on discovering my inner child.