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🌑 冬至 · When Letting Go Leaves a Void Awakening Your Worth · Blog Edition Today is 冬至 — the longest night of the year. I find myself alone today. Not because I want to be. But because I don’t want to go out. There’s a subtle difference. Inside me, emotions feel a little chaotic, a little empty. Not loud. Not explosive. Just… spacious in a way that feels unfamiliar. And as I sit with this, one truth becomes clear: When we learn to let go, a void is bound to appear. This blog is not about fixing that void. It’s about understanding it. 1️⃣ What Happens After Letting Go? Letting go is often romanticized as instant relief, peace, or freedom. Reality is quieter. When we let go, we lose not just a person, a role, or a situation — we lose a familiar emotional pattern . Even pain, when repeated long enough, becomes known territory. So what shows up next is often: Disorientation Emotional withdrawal A sense of identity vacuum Grief without a clear object Freedom th...

  Why Do I Learn? — The Old Me vs The Evolving Me There is one question that landed in my heart recently… A simple question, but it pierced through layers of my past: “Why do I learn?” At first, I laughed. Then I paused. Then I realised… this question is not simple at all. It is the key to understanding how much I’ve changed. 🌱 The Old Me Learnt for Survival If I’m brutally honest, the younger version of me learned because she wanted to feel “educated.” Like many of us growing up in the old-school Asian household, knowledge was the only currency to feel safe, respected, accepted. I learned so people would take me seriously. I learned so I wouldn’t feel small. I learned so I didn’t get left behind. That version of me studied from fear — fear of being judged, fear of being invisible, fear of being “not enough.” And I honour her. She did her best. 🌿 The Evolving Me Learns for Freedom Today… I learn for a completely different reason. I learn because I’m curious....

  In life, we’re always dancing between what we want and what we need . Some days, the heart pulls us in ten directions. Other days, we look at our life and wonder why we even wanted those things in the first place. This dance isn’t a mistake — it’s an invitation to understand ourselves on a deeper level. Here’s how I’ve been reflecting on it, and maybe it will resonate with you too. 1. What the eyes see, the heart desires Everything we look at — people, success stories, material things — leaves a mark inside us. But the real question is: Is this desire truly mine, or is it borrowed from the world? Once we can tell the difference, half of our inner confusion disappears. 2. The power of the second thought We always have that moment after the first impulse — the quiet pause before action. This “second thought” is not a hesitation. It’s wisdom tapping you on the shoulder. It’s the part of you that asks, Do I really need this? Or am I just filling a gap inside me? 3. Spr...

  ✨ Inclusions, Exclusions & The Human Heart — A Quiet Reflection ✨ We don’t talk about this enough… but every one of us has felt the sting of being left out, and also the guilt of not showing up when we were invited. Tonight, let’s peel back the layers and explore this dance we all experience — the dance of being included, excluded, and emotionally entangled in between. 1. When You Are Excluded: The Silent Ache There’s a particular ache that comes with exclusion. It’s not loud, but it pierces. Not because the event is important… but because somewhere deep inside, a question gets triggered: “Am I not enough?” Even as adults, we still carry this tiny fear from childhood — that fear of not belonging, not being chosen, not being remembered. What usually arises: a quick drop in confidence a little self-blame a quiet bruised ego or emotional numbness from too many past hurts And here’s the irony: Sometimes being excluded is actually protection. A circ...

  ✨ Awakening Your Worth: Walking Streets I’ve Never Walked Before Today, I pulled three cards — Justice, Three of Cups, Two of Cups — and an oracle card that felt like the universe tapping my shoulder gently but firmly: “You can’t do the same thing over and over and expect a different result. Change comes from walking streets you’ve never walked before.” And suddenly… everything made sense. Justice — The Truth I Can No Longer Ignore For years, I lived for others. Expectations, obligations, emotional debts. Justice didn’t show up to punish me — it showed up to free me. This card told me: “Peggy, your truth is your purpose now.” Three of Cups — The Tribe Is Returning Awakening is not a solo journey. It’s a circle. It’s community. It’s the people who resonate with your frequency even before you speak. This card reminded me: “I am here to create spaces where souls feel safe to breathe.” Two of Cups — The Heart Contract This is the card of sacred connection. And toda...

  Mental Bribery: The Silent Currency We All Use Without Realising We grow up thinking we’re “nice,” “helpful,” “understanding.” But somewhere along the way… we may also pick up this silent habit called mental bribery . And the funniest part? Most of us don’t even know we’re doing it — it’s already embedded in our cultural DNA. The Culture: Where It Begins I’ve watched enough dramas (Chinese, Korean, Thai — you name it 😂) to notice one thing: everyone survives using strategies built on past wounds. In real life, it’s the same. Our being — the person we present to the world — is shaped by the parts we hide in our shadows. We learn: behave ➜ get love sacrifice ➜ get approval don’t speak ➜ stay safe So we unknowingly create a system where love, peace, and acceptance become a currency. And this is where mental bribery starts. The Token: When Innocence Turns Transactional It starts small. A favour. A gift. A compromise to “keep the peace.” But secretly, the...

  Three Thoughts That Landed on My Heart Today Sometimes before a TikTok Live, I sit with myself and ask: “What is life really trying to teach me today?” And these three thoughts kept circling back — soft, loud, and persistent. So I took it as a sign to share them here, too. 1️⃣ Culture Is a Habit We Cultivate — Not Something We’re Born With People like to say, “This is our culture. This is just how we do things.” But if you look closely, most of what we call “culture” is simply a habit that survived long enough to look sacred. We inherit behaviours without realising it. We repeat patterns we never questioned. We carry expectations that were never ours to begin with. So the real question is: What have you been carrying that came from your past… not your truth? Culture is beautiful when it guides us. But culture becomes a burden when it cages us. In this era — especially Period 9 — we’re being asked to evolve, not break, the traditions we inherited. Upgrade the hab...

  Silence & Self-Focus – The Twin Forces of Awakening Every awakening begins in silence. Not the silence of peace — but the silence of discomfort. Since young, many of us were not taught to speak our truth. We were taught to say what others wanted to hear, to please, to belong. Our silence became our safety. But silence also carries weight. It holds unspoken words, unexpressed emotions, and unseen wounds. The Childhood Pattern 🌱 Around the age of ten — or even younger now — we start to believe that expression is a performance. We speak not to express, but to be accepted. We learn to please, to adjust, to adapt. Yet, every time we silence our inner voice, a small part of our worth goes unheard. The Pain of Silence 💫 When awakening begins, this buried silence starts to ache. We realize how much of our voice has been shaped by others’ expectations. We notice the discomfort — the emotional residue of years of not being heard. Awakening hurts because truth shakes the comfort of ol...

  Awakening Your Worth: The Confusion State When worth begins to appear, it often comes with a price. I call this stage the Confusion State — the in-between moment where awakening feels real but unclear, where emotions rise before clarity does. 1. How Does It Appear? When awakening happens, emotions surface first. Fear, sadness, doubt, or anger may show up like storms before the calm. It feels unsettling because it shakes the patterns you once depended on. 2. The Questions That Confuse In this state, your mind fills with questions: “What is happening?” “Why do I feel this way?” “Is everything I believed a lie?” These questions are natural, but if you stay in them too long, they drag you deeper into confusion. 3. Seeking Clarity This is when you realize the truth: The people and things you thought were stable may no longer feel the same. The self-image you held may begin to crack. Clarity requires you to sit with discomfort instead of running from it....

  🌕 凤凰与月亮：中秋的觉醒之旅 今晚，中秋节的圆月高挂。我在这一刻，想与你们分享一段特别的觉醒旅程——金凤凰从月亮降下。 在华人文化里，凤凰象征着涅槃、重生与希望。它的出现提醒我们：每一次的结束，都是重生的开始。就像今晚的圆月，即使有阴影，也依然圆满。 阴影与接纳 我们常常害怕自己的阴影，想要隐藏或否认它。可是真正的光，只有在阴影的衬托下才会显得更加明亮。 月亮之所以迷人，不是因为它完美无缺，而是因为它带着阴影依然发光。 人生亦是如此，接纳阴影，才是真正的圆满。 凤凰的讯息 凤凰从月亮降下，带着火焰与光芒。它不是毁灭，而是提醒我们： 当你敢于放下不属于你的东西，敢于直面失落，你才能展翅飞翔。 每一个你以为的“终点”，其实是另一个起点。 人生的转折，往往伪装成拒绝或失落。 自我价值的觉醒 自我价值，不是别人给予的，而是你自己看见的。 中秋的团圆，不仅仅是家人朋友的团聚，更是与自己内在的和解。 当你与自己团圆，当你接纳自己的阴影与光明，你才真正完整。 🌱 自我反思练习 今晚，你可以问问自己： 我有没有一个想放下的过去？ 如果凤凰此刻降临到我身边，它会带走什么？又会带给我什么？ 把答案写下来，就是一种自我疗愈。 🌌 今晚的种子 “接纳阴影，才能迎接光明；每一次结束，都是重生的起点。” 在这轮明月下，让我们一起点燃内在的光，拥抱新的自己。 ✨ Awakening Your Worth with Peggy Ang 📍 TikTok Live @peggyang57

  Awakening Your Worth: From Shadow to Light Life is a lighthouse — it guides us through storms, but it only shines because there are shadows around it. The shadows we project, the resistance we hold, the energy we leak, all point us toward our own awakening. In this sharing, I explored how shadow projections, resistance, energy vampires, empowerment, and sacrifice are all parts of one powerful process: moving from darkness into light.   1. Lighthouse of Life – Learning from Shadow Projections Shadows reveal the light. Just like a lighthouse stands tall in the storm, we too are guided by our higher self. The shadows in our life — those projections we see in others — are mirrors showing us what we need to face within ourselves.   2. What You Resist, Persists When we resist something, we actually give it more power. Our perception of others often reflects the unaccepted parts of ourselves. The moment we shift from resistance to awareness, transformation begins. ...

  Awakening Your Worth: Turning Rejection into Redirection Rejection is one of the hardest experiences to face. It feels like a door slammed in your face, a “no” you weren’t ready to hear. And often, it feels personal — as if our worth itself has been denied. But here’s the truth: rejection is not the same as unworthiness. When we are rejected, what’s really happening is a mismatch between our path and that situation, person, or opportunity. Rejection hurts because it awakens old wounds — the child in us who once felt left out or unseen. Yet, rejection can also be a teacher. It redirects us toward what is truly aligned. Every “no” makes space for a “yes” that fits better. Reframing Rejection - Rejection is redirection. - It doesn’t define your value, it defines timing and fit. - The more we can accept rejection, the more we step into resilience. Reflection Practice When rejection stings, pause and journal: 1. What rejection still hurts me today? 2. What did ...

 This was my sharing during live #tiktok #peggyang57. Regret is an emotion we all carry. It often shows up as a heavy reminder of what could have been. But what if regret isn’t a punishment, but a teacher? I’ve come to see regret as a mirror. It reflects the gap between who I was and who I am becoming. When approached with awareness, regret can be transformed into wisdom. The 5W3H Method for Exploring Regret When regret surfaces, I use the  5W3H method  as a simple framework to unpack it: 5W Who  → Who is involved in this regret? What  → What actually happened? When  → When did it occur? What season of your life? Where  → Where did it shape or affect you most? Why  → Why does it still sting? What’s the deeper reason? 3H How did it happen?  → The choices, actions, or circumstances that led to it. How did I feel?  → The emotional truth you experienced. How can I transform it?  → The lesson, the forgiveness, the release. The Emotional ...

  Acceptance is not surrender. Acceptance is the key that opens the door to freedom. When we talk about acceptance, we are not talking about giving up. We are talking about learning how to live fully, right here, right now. For me, acceptance has been one of the most difficult — yet most liberating — l essons on this awakening journey. 1. What We Accept We accept the things we cannot change: - The past that has already happened. - The choices that other people make. - The present moment, even when it is uncomfortable. We also accept ourselves, both the light and the shadow. Imagine opening your palms instead of clenching your fists — that’s the energy of acceptance. 2. Why We Accept Resistance drains our energy. The more we fight reality, the more exhausted we become. Acceptance is powerful because it brings peace. From peace comes clarity. From clarity comes growth. It’s important to remember: acceptance does not mean agreement. It means we stop wasting energ...

  Shadow, Projection & the Dance Between Emotions and Feelings When I recently received a 下下签 (Guanyin Oracle Lot 92) , some might have seen it as an omen of bad luck. My first emotion was a subtle drop in the body — disappointment, unease, maybe even fear. But instead of letting that emotion define me, I reframed 下下签 as a beginning from zero — a reset, a chance to rebuild with peace and harmony. This reminded me of the difference between emotions and feelings : Emotions = raw data . They are automatic, body-based reactions. A storm from the nervous system and past experiences. Example: Heart racing → anger. Feelings = conscious expression of emotions . The story and label we attach. They are selective, shaped by memory and choice. Example: That same anger could become resentment, frustration, or determination. 🌿 Metaphor: Emotion = storm in the body 🌩️ Feeling = weather report in the mind 📰 Shadow ...

  Awakening Your Worth: Working With Shadows & Triggers I find myself circling back to the past. The emotions that rise up are not because of fear itself—it’s the fear that triggers the emotions. Does that make sense? What we hide in our shadow often shows up through the people we meet or the situations we face. Surprising? Maybe. But shadows have a way of sneaking into the open. I was once with a friend who told me she disliked a certain person but didn’t know why. I knew why—but it wasn’t for me to tell her. She wasn’t ready to face it yet. Why did I know? Because I had seen the same thing in myself. In the past, whenever someone or something triggered me, I fell straight into the trap of ego protection. My victimized inner child would come out—I’d get angry, frustrated, jealous, and miss the chance to learn. Since beginning this awakening journey (and yes, it is a journey), I’ve noticed the process more clearly. First the doubts would rise as a shield. Then fea...

 Children of the Universe, welcome to this space of reflection. Awakening your worth is not a straight road — it is a journey of ups and downs. When I first started sharing, it was random. Yet through it, I heard the whispers of the shadow. Not the physical shadow, but the hidden part of our inner universe — the unconscious, the inner child. It is the part of us that society taught us to suppress, so we wear masks to survive. I once sought only light, but I discovered the shadow. In trying to escape fear, I fell deeper into it. I learned that shadow is not our enemy; it is the part of us that longs to be recognized. This journey is exhausting. Reflection drains me, and emotional patterns from the past resurface. But in this, I realized I am not alone. Many of you share the same struggle — and the culprit is our feelings. Is it easy? No. But the reminder is this: awakening is a journey. To be strong for myself means to be strong for you too. On Monday, I spoke about fear. Today...